They were intriguingly beautiful, patterned,colourful and sparkling, some textured and some polished. She was always curious every time she picked one,unable to resist her exploratory nature, she ended up breaking one and discovering the hidden beauty .
For her those stones weren't just a stones,but much like a delicate living organism that after being alife decided to frizz,harden up and shield in order to make its beauty eternal!
The next day the rainbow was hight in the sky after a rainy day "While picking up her stones, she saw a chunk of mud that caught her attention with its beautiful earthy yellowish color. Curious, she cut of a chunk, feeling its squishiness and stickiness, with her small fingers she spontaneously began shaping and modelling it until it took on to shape of a Heidi shoe (her favourite cartoon) .
She didn't know by then that this sticky mud would shape her career and path as she did with a shoe.
Later in life she find herself at the door of L'école Supérieur des beaux-arts trying to determine what specialisation to choose for her art study ? Painting was the first specialisation that came to her mind,
"But as soon as the lady with her long boring explanations mentioned the words 'clay,' 'pottery,' and 'wheel' that's when she said, 'That one. I choose that one.'"ceramic arts studies.
During my art study, I found myself immersed in a world of freedom, with no boundaries and no set rules. However, this abundance of challenges creates an uncertainty who made it stressful and difficult to navigate. As a result, a feeling of insecurity and fear started to gradually consume me. "I became scared of that so-called "creativity.""
I felt a sense of disconnection and was drawn away from art and creativity.
The concept of "creativity" became so intimidating,that I avoided it all along,
I turned to basic activities, jobs and experiences, where I found comfort and stability. I needed it! Ineeded to be grounded.
the limiting belief that I wasn't creative took root dip within me, helding me back from pursuing my artistic side .
-When looking backward now,it seems like I wanted to forget in order to be reintroduced again as fresh as a child to the world.
Until "the awakening"moment happened, the moment I found my lost thread,my path again.
Just prior to the lockdown when corona hit we moved to a new home .This transition, along with the new surroundings and neighbourhood, proved to be incredibly beneficial for me.it was during this time that I embarked on a quest to unpack the complexities of my blocks, particularly the relationship I had with creativity."
What exactly was this concept that I was so afraid of?
I spent approximatively about 2 weeks conducting self analysis,google searches,watching testimonials, videos, until it happened....And I screamed! I screamed as if i discovered a mine of gold and I ran to my husband, yelling I AM CREATIVE, I AM CREATIVE, I am creative!
My husband looks at me like I completely lost my mind! and he replies 'what? of course you are !what is knew about that ? we've all been telling you this for years!'
In response I said, "Sorry! I didn't believe you before, but now I do. I Believe I am it!"
-It was a pivotal moment, an extraordinary "awakening" when I broke free from my limitations and fully tapped into my boundless potential.It was the crucial step that allowed me to unlock my artistic abilities and embrace my true creative self.
I experienced the creative flow for over 10 days ! An incredible experience that filled me with joy and excitement. I felt amazing, as if I had been reborn. food and sleep became secondary, with a silly smile on my face, I spent my days, sketching, taking notes, writing, and exploring new ideas with endless possibilities.
I decided to take action and picked up the phone to inquire about joining a ceramic studio and becoming a member.That moment marked the beginning of a transformative journey, one that would not have been possible if I hadn't started believing in myself. It was the first step towards change, filling me with a sense of empowerment and determination."